Purim: Overcoming Kinah and Learning to See with an Ayin Tov

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If you ignore me well, you'll be out here almost 12 years. I hear you. Who's calling me? Who? Me? He has to have it. I don't mind. I am. Okay. Rabbi, we want to hear Divrei Sholom. Listen carefully. Listen carefully. Omein. Omein. Chai, chai. Obviously I drank. My mind is a little... Shh. I want to tell you what I thought about. Okay. It was so... Is a serious zachin over here. Heavy one. Is it on tape for the Rebbe's yeshiva that Rebbe doesn't go to anymore? Hopefully it'll stop even on Sunday. I will tape it. You know, I'll tell you the... Shh. I'm humble. I'm very humble. That's the truth. I'm not more than most of the... Just like everybody else. I want the same thing everybody wants. The Eibishter. That's all I want. You going to... All the Eibishter. So much more to... You have to go. No, I meant... So then let me start with this part. I thank you very much, Bemus. I really thank you. I thank you, brother. It's not the singing, and it's not the music, and it's not the guitar. It's not what it is. I appreciate people. I appreciate the lev of people. It's the way I grew up. I was trained that way. To appreciate. I appreciate very much what you've done for us in this medrash. It's a lot more than just the coming. I know. From behind, you've done a lot for us. I appreciate what you've done. It's chizuk. Everybody's there to help, to try. We're trying to reach a goal. It's real harachah. It's real. It's real harachah. I appreciate very much. And I want to tell you, rabosai, I thought, what it is that we could do to be mesaken one thing that's going to turn our lives completely around. You know, Purim is a day, ein tog ayahr, one day. Yomim tovim we have, Pesach takes eight days, and—sorry—seven days of Chanukah is eight days, and what was that tog? That's like kasha. ... It's like ... Shabbos day. ... It's on this. ... Good Shabbos. ... Good Shabbos. ... The good, the good is together with the vav. The gimel is together with the vav. ... Fire, fire. Fire, Baruch Hashem. Ein tug Purim, yom kippurim. See, in Kippur, as I say, ... Okay. What is it, ... that could change us around for a whole year? What's this? What's this? What's the limit? What's the limit for Purim? You know, rabosai, and again, my mind is wandering. Follow with me a little. I hold the machla, like this, le'einu, this cancer, AIDS, whatever it is, the machla dedor.

There's a machlah ruchni in today's dor, and I'm going to say it. I don't care if anybody doesn't like it. Yes, you don't pay me. Yes, you don't pay me. It's true. You know what the machlah of the dor today is in ruchnius? It's kinah. I thought about it. Just like Yom Kippur... Yom azivas kinah. It took me years and years to be oimed. Could be yesod, I don't... It's not negeia. It's something that's coming right from the Ribbono Shel Olam. I thought about it today. Shloimele, did we not together sit and think during the seudah over two bottles? What is it? Only two? Don't give me that point. You beat me in that case. Yid, yid, say, yid, what is it? What stops us today? What's ruining us? Something is going not right. It's escapist. ... What is it? It's the kinah. Kinah, rabboisai. Kinah. What's the reason of the cancer? We don't forgive. ... It's the same yesod, kinah. Yom azivas sachlus v'kinah. Purim. So, my ... kids. I'm telling you, rabosai, ... is a machl. You don't know what it's doing to us, rabosai. You don't know what it's doing to us. I'm going to say it in simple words: ayin ra. We do not have ayin tov. And ממילא, we're mekalkel ourselves, and we're ... It's being machriv us min hashoresh. I want to tell you Haman a little bit. Lamed redna bisil Haman, v'lamed redna bisil Mordechai, v'lamed redna bisil Purim. What was yesod number one? What was the first kasha? Kasha number one? ... different lashonos in pasuk aleph and pasuk ... perek aleph, pasuk daled and Mordechai. ... by Haman, ... that he made a seudah: chavlei vargamon, agulei kesef, amudei sheish, chur karpas u'cheles, achuz b'chavlei ... You want to make fun of anybody, you would be chipping me. I want to tell you something. I daven to the Eibishter ... I promise you, I daven to the Eibishter. It didn't help. It didn't help. I want you to know, it shouldn't. It didn't work. ... I want you to know, as much as they'll fight me, I take it on with love. I want that. We don't have anybody else like that in the entire world. There's nobody else like that in the entire world. I ask you ... I'm telling you. I'm telling you the truth. You're not listening to me. You know why I want it? I want that what I do should be l'shem. Otherwise, I can't. I don't see a point. I can't do the same thing every day with all the difficulties. If I didn't mean it for the... I can't do it. What should I do? I have this continuous negius, zich. It's about zich. I can't. I just can't do it. I don't care about myself. I just can't do it. I tried it as a kid. As a kid I tried. Yeah, dust, yeah, it's geshmack. It runs out after a while; me ken shoyn. The only thing that drives me is that it's not for me, it's for the right thing, it's for... So as mevil zich, shlog, shlog zich nisht tzam. Don't fight. Come to me, fight me about the time, and fight me about this, and then I'll... and later, and yes speaking and not speaking. I don't care. Baruch Hashem. Let's get back to kinah, yeah, cheshbones. ... What's the negiah? What's the negiah? It's the negiah, all the different ...

Just like there's hamshacha for kedusha in the Mishkan, double. What's the pshat? You know everything I was going to say. Did you, were you in the house? Were you hiding under my chair, under my table? He was hiding under my table. Do you know... ...go there. ...Wesgate. ...that dead around here, didn't... ...Hashem. Mordechai goes out with the same thing, you know that. Mordechai HaTzadik. ...Mordechai... the same thing. ...except for the... but the same, it's the same. No, I can't daven like this. ...You notice that everything in Purim is harbeh. ...You said... Huh? ...esen, esen, and trinken. ...Matanos la'evyonim, ...chaveirim, l'harbos. ...mit essen, mit essen, mit vayter essen, mit vayter trinken. What's the pshat? Let me tell you a big yesod. The Alter of Slabodka teaches us... Kulei taiv. In yeder shtikel gashmiyus, in yeder shtikel gashmiyus, kemen hoben der Ribono Shel Olam's kulei taiv. Hashem is mad, gives you so much. Forget das eifel essen un trinken. Az miz makir, dos iz kiyum miyadcha, malei, apsucha, kedosha v'rechava. Kedosha. Es iz kedusha, rabosai, kedosha v'rechava. Chesed iz v'mehot asach, zich gevaldik. We're gonna get to that. Wait, wait. I know. Wait, wait. What was Achashverosh's ...? ... Show off, huh? Show off. ... Look, look what ... ... What? ... I could take the same chur, karpas, ... och, dizelbe zach. ... Tzanan de velt, yeah? Dizelbe ingredients in the hands of a zich ... and what did it end up? He came in ... it was such a ... He was depressed for two years afterwards. ... Tzvei yor, tzvei yor ... Which of the ... are so gevaldik. Oh, shh. I don't know what to do. They're so gevaldik. It's appreciated. Every word the Rav said, so gevaldik. What should I do? Say it. So give me the ... first. ... Sometimes it's too good. Be careful, sometimes too good. ... This is ... טוב, but too full ... ... זוי האר. ... I heard the word ... ... ... What were they ...

This is the next catch. What's the next catch? For vanit kumt, if you take a look, aboysai, there's a big theme inside the Megillah: the downfall about trees, trees, trees. Ginas Bisan HaMelech. They saw that the malachim were coming and cutting down the trees of Achashverosh, yeah? Why did it be that it should come bedavka with trees? What was the beis? Why the trees? So the Maharal speaks. The Maharal discusses, bedavka, he had his downfall. At Genumen a shtick holtz to hang Mordechai. Where did he get this fifty amah thing? From Noach in the teivah. Noach in the teivah. He knocked down his house. He knocked down his house. But it was from Noach in the teivah. Let me tell you a gevaldige... Noach had genumen holtz in the teivah. It was chesed zayn, un tzu brengen geulah la'olam. Noach took a wood. I created a whole world with chesed, olam chesed yibaneh. Hello, hello. רבי, ... חיים, and ... ... from Torah. ... ... eight. ... ... ... The Maharal says, ... The Maharal says ... horo, horo. What's this horo? The Maharal ... a shlechter mensch. ... I'm gonna get there, I'm gonna get there. Horo, a shlechter mensch. So he's not machshiv. ... says the Maharal. ... Wait, wait, get there. ... ... ... to give ... chesed. What's about ...? He's an ... ... hanging, it's to hang, it's to kill people. To hang, to hang, to hang. Sorry, get you out of it. When a horn is a gaiver. When you want to say the guy is a gaiver, what do you say about him? He toots his own horn. He toots his own horn. We don't toot without a horn is a self-defense. I got a run! Get out! Just not carry. Nothing. Lefty. I want to show him I can nemesh shein a beima, beautiful trees, and he'll cut them down. Rebbe! Rebbe!

Rabbi, let disappear. Where are you? ... Rabbi, ... listen to the mussar. Rabbi, tomorrow night, say there like regular. Tomorrow night. Tomorrow morning. What is tomorrow night? Tomorrow morning. Rabbi, say there like regular. We’re gonna win. ... Rabbi. ... The ... Hashem ... it's 166 words, ... 166 words ... Rabbi Fund! Rabbi Fund! Rabbi Fund! ... What is ...? Does that ... work of matter? ... You say goodbye and never leave. They say goodbye and never leave. They could be, you know, like Frankenstein. ... Frankenstein. Frankenstein. I never heard the old song. ... Come on, let me just finish the ... Wait, wait. ... I didn't hear so much time. ... Show Rabbi what the problem is. Right. My mother as a kelim, but she took away the skinning because the ... I was thinking too hard. ... Where's ...? ...

Whoa. He comes every night? No, he just comes Thursday night. So she said... I have a different... Why does he get punished? I'm asking you. Wait a minute. I'm asking. I would say... Rabbi, listen, listen. I know everybody wants to be rav over here, but we have a rav already. The job is filled. He doesn't get paid. Let him at least talk. Trust me, they know what it entails. They're not going to want to be rav here. You know what rav went through? Nah, I don't know. I wasn't here. She says, Zecher, zecher, zacher... Do you know what everybody went through just to get a Sefer Torah? No, Karevy finished. Real Sefer Torah. Five minutes and we'll do five times. 9:45. 9:45. Okay, rabbosai, let's at least give everybody the kavod to talk. Okay, rabbosai, rabbosai. Do you know that HaChashverosh originally let them build the Beis HaMikdash, and then he changed his mind? Sita. Haman is going to... Mordechai comes all the way from Yerushalayim and relocates himself in Shushan. He's yoshev b'shaar... at gezesel... many different pshatim. But I want to... His whole kavanah is buying the Mikdash, and this a guy, chas v'shalom, lost. Sits the Mishar HaMelech, because that's what he came. He came maybe ... happened to me, so the ... that they want to kill. Let them kill him. Ela mai, then maybe ... maybe who knows who will come next? Maybe God who's next. ... Rabosai, Rabosai, listen. Rabosai, now listen, listen. ... The Eibishter is going to take care. ... Whatever it is, it's not for you to go and make cheshbonos. There's no cheshbon that she should go and be a wife of Achashverosh and ... It's a kfiyas hatov. Do you know what Haman stands for? Arba novel bilboi. What's novel? Novel bilboi is Esav. ... Make your shmuel kill. ... And then he'll go and kill Yishmael. I'm sorry, not Yaakov. And then he's going to go and kill Yishmael. And then, no, then he'll kill Yishmael, goy ladam. And then he'll kill Yaakov, because he now... Esav will, avekhargenen alemen. He's gonna eliminate everybody, k'dei she'ereshes kol ha'olam. By Mordechai's ... Haman, avekhargenen Achashverosh. He's gonna kill Achashverosh so he can get what he wants. The chiluk tzvishen an Esav. Here is the yesod. The yesod ligt der inyan fun kinah. What is kinah? What's kinah? Explain what kinah. Google the Tartes. Google the Tartes. Kinah is that you're not happy with your life. No, no, no. You want to be on top. Whatever Hashem gives you is what's proper for you; you want to be mekaneh in. There's two types of kinah. There's kinah tzafuyim, that you want the other guy to have, and you should also have. That's not bad. Kinah tzafuyim is the inyan of zalnish. Kinah is that yener shouldn't have it. The bad one is yener shouldn't have it. Esav is the pshat yener... Nobody should have it; I should have it.

Kina is that a person sees, it's about me and that's all I care. Mimeila, even in zachin which are toiv, is that mishlecht. In order for a person to see in something toiv, it can't be with kinah. It can't. Huh? Do you hear what I'm saying? No, I need to understand. You need to understand. You know what? No, no, no, no, no. I'm gonna say it, but I want you to... Finish. Not 45. Finish. Not 11. You know, why did he kill Vashti? Why did Haman want to kill Vashti? ... Vashti. Then later Achashverosh thinks he wants to kill him. He's ready to kill everybody to get what he wants, right? Kinah is the pshat. So even what's good, even a good thing, you can't see good in it. When something is toiv, to zender toiv, or to makir zayin the toiv, it has to have an ayin toiv. Kinah is an ayin ra. Haman zet an altes as a ra. That's what he says. The whole idea of this mishnah is ayin toiv, that we should see the good about everybody. Yeah. The purpose why we set up this mishnah. Correct. Stop the ... anywhere. Correct. Just finish. Sheshanas Yaakov. So, what does that have to do with the Sheshanas Yaakov? Why is it about sheshan, the sheshan? What does Klal Yisrael arose among ...? What is a ...? A goy, ... They don't have it. ... They don't have. What do they have? In everything they see, they see the zech; it's about me. So how does it refer to me when I have a ...? ... means, is that toiv. Okay, rabosai, I see the Olam's ... Listen carefully. ... You want to see toiv, and you don't want ... To see the chesed ... It's also not ... Has all the good in the world, but what was it about? ... ... So I'll give in about this. ... It wasn't about — it was about the ... about the ... chesed, that the ... did a nes. That's why the whole inyan of Purim is yeda. ... not for yourself. Then you can see the toiv. You can start seeing the ... You know what the one thing that Haman doesn't like? By Yisroel. What's issue? No, Yisroel. Issue. ... When they knocked down the trees.

I know, I know. Some people have bigger chayes than others. Some want... One during morning seder. ... Even him. ... open your heart. ... should go into your heart. ... should stay there. ... to be doyleh u'mashkeh ... ... to be a ... ... Can you help me? ... Shh. You know what a regular person... Try to find the sefer that I would enjoy, which is what I thought into it. He wrote in. And he is ... That's what it is. A healthy person looks at a matzav, sees all the good things that can come. Now you understand what I mean by a tree. Understand, a tree. Chomer harasha can't see anything good in a tree. He can't see anything good. A table. Could you imagine that we would just take it with trembling? It was a piece of the table that saved the world. It uses it to hang up a hanging person. To see no tov whatsoever. You close the door. He could see it. You want to know, at least its value as a museum. It's museum value. What would you call that in English? Museum value. ... Amen. He thought of the Olam. He thought of the Olam.

Let me know who to ask when it comes to... Amazing, amazing. ...the chiluk between... Amen. Amen. ...the... ...the... ...He's a never. He's a never. Okay. ...to the point that he's ready to take lashnis killer, so maybe his daughter could marry. You hear the coffee thing with this guy? ...coffee ...you never saw. Amalek is with us. Late. We said in the kraivus that some people said it didn't. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Today I don't know. Today. Shabbos... Shabbos also says late. Yeah, yeah. That's Amalek. That's Amalek. Amalek is late. Nothing is important. Nothing is important. ...You're a bad boy. You should have listened, paid attention. You have to be mevatel your minhag to the Rebbe's minhag. What is this? So, but that's his building, though. No, you have to say it. ... Come on. Close the door. Close the door. Close the door over there. They don't want to come in. They don't want. They're leitzim. But they're leitzim. Everybody just keeps the door open to anybody. You know what a leitz is? No chashivus for anything. Ah, same thing. You want to hear? Ginas Bisanah, Chashverosh's beautiful tree. Beautiful. Do you want to see what a Chashverosh's Ginas Bisanah... I can't force you. ... Haman said we should chop them down. But they were lying. And the Maharal is saying, Maharal is saying a ... that that was his oynish for being an ish ram. Not stam that they were lying. I'm sorry, my mind was wandering before. It was the wine. I'm telling you something truthful. I'm not stam saying דברים. Ish ram. You know what an ish ram means? It means nothing. Everything is ... ישנו עם אחד מפוזר ומפורד. He ... Klal Yisrael by Achashverosh also. Achashverosh didn't look at Klal Yisrael that way. Haman had a koach to be able to come and ... You know ... ... That's who it is. That's who they are. He was able to zoom in on a rock. You hear? What happened? It looks like you went through World War III. Yeah? Put up the toll house and he... What? Put up the toll house and he... Your belt fell? Broke. Don't do that. He's not so convinced. He's not so convinced. I'm telling you, ... He's ... means. Yeah, last in the car. I don't have cuffs. What's wrong? The luggage is in danger. Because I told him, I reminded him. Don't forget. Hello. How many is the mound and not the hole?

I need a new bracha, I need a new bracha. Ma'ariv is nishka nefsek? ... to the point that that's all he saw. ... to the point that that's all he saw. The Rebbe is speaking, and that's all he saw. It's not ... Yehudim? No, but ... he wants to ... Taravel ... He stood for yesod. I believe that's why he killed Achashverosh. Why did he kill Achashverosh? He had a chance to get rid of Achashverosh. ... wants to kill Achashverosh. Maybe you learn the pshat, maybe who knows what would come instead. Haman was this, and it was ... they say if you kill one ... you never know who comes instead. Before Haman. Before anything, it was before Haman. But Achashverosh was a king who didn't let them build the ... What does he protect Achashverosh for? Why is Esther ... What does that mean? Middas tovos never lose, never lose. Right? There wasn't legal; they were doing something that wasn't the law. One second, did he stop on it? Was he the one who was stopping Mordechai ...? Came all the way from Yerushalayim just to stop Achashverosh. And here a guy wants to kill him. Okay. That's another way to say it. He should have thought. He should have—he could have made it, but he didn't. He could have made it, but he didn't. David is doing. I once saw... she says... Are you saying that? You're saying that she wasn't? Why? Is that all he was, was... That's all it was? Mike, it was a hug. No? That was the chiluk. The chiluk between sinah, sinah, and sinas chinam. Klal Yisrael sinned rachmanim, bayshanim, gomlei chasadim. What does that mean? Rachmanim, bayshanim, gomlei chasadim. What is a rachman? When a person sees—what does he see? That's all. You know my name? You know my name? I heard. Rosengarten, yeah, I knew. How was... How was... ...if you want to take the comma of the goyim, yes or no? Oh, man. We're gonna say no. Why? Because it just needs a heker. And how is them kol goyim? Why? ... That's from you. Tell me, what's the pshat in the... Kinah tamid... What's the pshat? Esther says, 'Kavuni l'doros,' and the chachamim say, 'Kinah me'oreres aleinu l'vein hagoyim.' What does that mean? You know? What does it mean, kinah? Bottom line. Bottom line. You hear that? Bottom line. First you see... everything that... everything... that's... Otherwise, it's... That's what Amalek is. The milchamah laShem baAmalek.

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